You’re Still God
“You’re still God when I don’t understand.
You’re still God when nothing makes sense.”
I don’t understand pain. I don’t understand heartache. I don’t understand unanswered prayers or seasons of waiting.
I keep finding myself in seasons of waiting. Seasons of discerning. Seasons in which I am simply trying to put one foot in front of the other.
Grief has found me once again with a feeling of sorrow I wasn’t ready for. A hurt that stings and has shaken what stability I thought I had.
You may know what it feels like. To finally feel like you’re doing well, to then being hit with a crater you didn’t see coming. I suppose this is life, isn’t it?
In my recent quiet times, I’m learning to embrace God’s presence and the importance of being real. That to God, all He wants is my honesty and my desire to follow Him. I don’t have to have it all together.
I’m learning that time spent with God, feeling His presence, or reading His Word, is time that I will never regret. My circumstances may not change, but my perspective and outlook can. And during tough seasons, the one I need most is God. He is the only One who can heal broken hearts.
A man whom I thought to be like a father-figure, recently died unexpectedly. It wasn’t planned and things happened that left his body too weak for life on earth. He went from living to dying to immediately being healed for eternity. He loved Jesus and served God with all that he had.
As a family in the days immediately following his death, we were sitting together and reminiscing about his life and many sweet, sweet memories. A common thread was his faith and love for studying the Bible. He had so much knowledge of scripture and he sought to keep learning more about the God he loved. He was working on a Bible study lesson at the moment he suffered a massive heart attack.
If anything can give me comfort in his death, it is that he was confident in his faith and knew that one day his journey would be over. Eternity would begin for him, full of worship and celebration. I find comfort knowing he served God with his whole heart, through his family, his music, his teaching, and his servant’s heart.
In a non-cliche way, I’ve been challenged through this venture with death. Geary taught me the importance of fierce faith and knowledge of the Bible. Never underestimate God’s power in our lives. To believe in the Gospel more than anything else.
When you find someone in your life willing to pour into you spiritually, do not take it for granted. I don’t think I truly realized the great impact Geary had on my life until the days following his death. When I could no longer walk past his office and have him poke his head out with something humorous to say. When I could no longer sit across the table for a meal together. Or hear his advice regarding numerous topics.
Death sure leaves a sting. An ache no one can fill. I’m thankful for Jesus because through Him is the only way I’ll find healing to embrace another chapter in this thing they call life. I cannot imagine walking through a time of so much pain without the Hope of Jesus.
Scriptures and songs full of comfort and worship have stilled my unsettled heart in these days. I’ve found bits of peace during moments in which I wasn’t expecting it. I pray that can be encouraging to you today, with whatever you may be walking through. That God surrounds us day and night and promises to never leave us, even when times are difficult or our hearts are breaking.
Revelation 21:1-7 (ESV) speaks of what is to come for those who love God and seek to follow Him. A promise of Heaven and healing.
Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. 2 And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. 3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place[a] of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people,[b] and God himself will be with them as their God.[c] 4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”
5 And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also, he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” 6 And he said to me, “It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty, I will give from the spring of the water of life without payment. 7 The one who conquers will have this heritage, and I will be his God and he will be my son.
Today, as long as it takes, believe that miracle or not, God is with you. God loves you. Keep saying it until your broken heart comes to believe it. Allow Hope to saturate your heart. Trust the God of healing. God is who He says He is.
Songs of healing-click and listen if you have a few quiet moments. Allow God to speak to you.
