Thank God I Do

I’ll be honest. Some days are easier than others. Some days are challenging and exhausting. Can I get an Amen?

I explained to my counselor that it felt like I couldn’t keep my head above the water. It had been a week in which my anxiety had gotten the best of me and it felt like my brain wouldn’t slow down. I was overwhelmed but still doing what I’ve always done best - stuffing my emotions unsure of how to be honest about where I was.

I was gently reminded that we are going to have and encounter periods of time that feel like a lot. After all, there is such a thing as a normal level of anxiety. It’s part of life. What happened for me was I struggled to discern between the two. This particular week I struggled to ground myself and give myself the grace that I deserved.

And you know what? I’m not ashamed of the struggle. I’m learning with each difficult moment just how much I have to learn. And also just how far I have come. I’m a work in progress, and I keep showing up.

In one of her latest singles, Thank God I Do, Lauren Daigle shares this:

It’s been a hard year, so many nights in tears.

All of the darkness, trying to fight my fears.

I don’t know who I’d be if I didn’t know you, I’d probably fall off the edge.

I don’t know where I’d go if you ever let go, so keep me held in Your Hands.

Can you relate? I know I can. I don’t know who I would be without God. Even with God, I’m not immune from pain or trouble, but with Him, I have Hope. A sense of Hope that cannot be found anywhere else. A Hope that points to Heaven.

I’m comforted to know that even on my off days (or weeks) I’m still loved and chosen by God. And you are too. There’s nothing to fear trusting God to guide our steps. I pray to stay in God’s Hands my entire life. I don’t want to be anywhere else. What about you?

I wrote this in my Bible in February 2021. It’s just as true now as it was then.

I may not know the next steps He’ll lead me to take, but I have peace knowing He has already gone before me, remains with me, and will never leave me.

Deuteronomy 31:8

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.